…and i quote

The horizon of many people is a circle with zero radius which they call their point of view.

~ Albert Einstein

Baby-stepping

Take the first step, and your mind will mobilize all its forces to your aid.

But the first essential is that you begin.

Once the battle is started, all that is within and without you will come to your assistance.

-Robert Collier

I’m having better days. It’s not easy to regain the momentum I had before my very own dark ages (”ages” may be too long to describe it), but I’m bouncing back. I’ve begun to pick myself up and in the process of dusting it all off.

What brought this on? Well, it could have started when I triumphantly conquered the white paint souvenir the darned taxi left on my fender. (more…)

Make it stop!

When it rains, it definitely pours. One after the other. 

It was my choice - a light load this semester. Well, not much of a choice actually, considering that they’re all that’s left. I have all the time in the world. And yet, I don’t give too much of an effort to at least make my time worthwhile. And when I hear people complaining about their time, of lack thereof, and tell me how lucky I am, I just shrug and tell them how I beat myself last semester to make it through. 

Oh yes, I have always made that excuse. It’s been months since this semester started and yet I still use the “I-got-so-tired-and-burnt-out-from-last-semester” line. And I still can’t push, or even shove, myself into doing some effort. 

When the exams came, the crammer that I was, had to spend sleepless nights studying. Not because I was into the zone then. It’s because I was too stubborn to start studying early on when I had all the time in the world. I would start only the day before the exams. There is no need to guess how bad I felt after that week. Not just bad, actually, I felt guilty. And I know I would feel a whole lot worse once the results would start revealing themselves. The fruit of my non-labor.  (more…)

*GULP!*

The past couple of months were uneventful. The gap from the last post says it all. And when I say uneventful, there was, to my standards, nothing to make a big deal of. The same holidays came and went. The short-lived and surreal escape from the truth that is the status quo. The status quo that have been for the past couple of years. It is the same status quo that is starting to manifest its gradual transition into something bigger, something more concrete yet complex for an untrained soul like mine. 

And the description of bigger, more concrete and complex, makes me think of a monster, very eager and ready to eat me alive. 

When that time comes, I’ll be sure to be equipped with an armor, a sword, a horse, and if possible, a couple of soldiers that would never retreat unless I say so. Are all these too much to ask?

You

Dear YOU,

Life would never be the same had it not been for you. You opened my eyes to so many things. You brought me to maturity at a premature age. You gave me a reason to believe in things that I never knew existed before. You became my pillar, my bestfriend and my soulmate.

Despite the stereotyping of your race, you listened. You listened more than what my circle of friends of my own race would have done. You never grew tired of me yakking about the same things every now and then. You never interrupted me. You never asked “why?”. You just sat there and paid attention. You never pretended to listen, unlike others who would just stare into space tuning out the person talking. You were really there. You were present. I always felt it. (more…)

Funny? NOT!

It’s funny how things turn out sometimes. Or is it?

Case in point, is Mr. A. He’s been struggling to get out of being stereotyped as the “chickboy” who couldn’t care less about anything in life. He projects the image as if he’s the type who wouldn’t take things life seriously as much as the next person. So he stepped up, improved himself, and aimed to prove everybody wrong. Years passed, he finally made it to become a professional, which only a few would actually endeavor to undergo considering the time, effort and money. He is now destined to earn a lot more than any serious man who would focus on his career. 

So before he was able to achieve where and what he is now, he met Ms. B. They took things slow, having their own priorities in life, being busy with personal growth, extracurricular activities and what-not. Finally, they become a couple, officially. A so wanted B to be the “one” that he made her feel so special more than any girl could ever feel. Unfortunately, B wanted out. B’s not happy anymore.

The funny thing is, all the while that A was preparing for the biggest exam in his life, he was thinking that everything will finally fall to place afterwards. That he will be able to focus on their future. That she will be there to celebrate with him and be there alongside him in building a future for them. 

He was wrong. He is now the professional he struggled for. But now, B’s not in his life anymore. 

All that he said was, “Well, I can’t have it all,” with a sad face.

Now, is that funny? Definitely not. But life goes on. A must move on. A must build his future. And the good thing that came out of this is that he never lost faith and hope that he will find “the one” he deserves. “The one” God had planned for him. Maybe it’ll still be B, maybe another, but in the right time he’ll know. 

Now, that’s maturity. More than anything, he has gained a lot, more than he thinks he had lost.

Closing the Gap

It’s been more than two months since my last post. Why? One, training and myself to be a diligent, disciplined, conscientious and efficient student. Two, nothing happens lately to blog about, perhaps because, of reason #1. Well, attempting to close the gap from the last post, here goes:

Milestones. 

Friends are either a wife, becoming a wife. Some have become a mommy, or about to be mommies. Congratulations! Best Wishes! And whatever sincere greeting there may be for you guys. It’s nice to know that despite the growing number of cynics, people still believe in happily ever after.

“I asked her to marry me because she’s the one. (more…)

choices, choices.

You were full of ideals and hopes when you first set foot. As time went by, suddenly, you realize, you’re becoming a different person. Yet, you held on. You see things differently now. You go with the current where life takes you. Time passes before your eyes. And then one moment, one fleeting moment, you get disappointed. The system messed you up. You mess up. And yet, you still CHOOSE to hang in there. Still hopeful that in the long run, you will see the change you believe that will come one day. You hang on with the thinnest and tiniest thread of hope it will soon come. Until one day, you just wake up and find yourself being eaten alive by the very thing against your ideals. Your hopes are gone. And you are left with nothing more but the mechanical routine of what transpires each and every day. Would you stay? Or leave with what’s left of you?

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yours

Claim it. Own it. And it’s yours.

Think about it. It should be that easy. Everything should be that easy. Life should be that easy.

Or is it?

Comic Reliefs

Finally, a ray of light in my crappy day! I find myself laughing with these pictures I found just leisurely surfing the net.

I just can’t help it. Ha ha. You must see for yourselves how funny and cute these pictures are. And if you haven’t seen enough, click on this link:

Lolcats ‘n’ Funny Pictures of Cats - I Can Has Cheezburger? (more…)