choices, choices.

You were full of ideals and hopes when you first set foot. As time went by, suddenly, you realize, you’re becoming a different person. Yet, you held on. You see things differently now. You go with the current where life takes you. Time passes before your eyes. And then one moment, one fleeting moment, you get disappointed. The system messed you up. You mess up. And yet, you still CHOOSE to hang in there. Still hopeful that in the long run, you will see the change you believe that will come one day. You hang on with the thinnest and tiniest thread of hope it will soon come. Until one day, you just wake up and find yourself being eaten alive by the very thing against your ideals. Your hopes are gone. And you are left with nothing more but the mechanical routine of what transpires each and every day. Would you stay? Or leave with what’s left of you?

You love the other person. You are in a relationship which gained a lot of fans among your friends and acquaintances. People have witnessed the beginning and the developments of each and every struggle to make the relationship at its zenith. You were full of dreams that are so vivid that you could actually taste the bliss that you expect in the future. And then one day, you just suddenly feel something isn’t there anymore. The person you love had taken away a very significant part of you to actually be sane. You have become a different person. You are slowly becoming the person who you think the other person deserves. And yet, you CHOSE to let it go this far that you feel you are not who you are anymore. You had lost yourself in the dreams of that other person, instead of focusing on yours alone. Suddenly, you find yourself unhappy. You become scared that in the long run, this would turn into a tragic ending. Would you stay? Or leave with what’s left of you?

In the end, it’s all about choices, standing firm on how you perceive yourself, how you control your very being. You have the power to  choose when and where to give, to lose and to let go. You have the power to choose how much you are able and capable of losing yourself. You have the choice to make the necessary or unnecessary sacrifice that you would hope to effect a sweet change or unconsciously lead to a tragic one. You and you alone decide what you will see tomorrow. Remember, it’s not only your life that you affect, significant persons in your life also receive some part of you, and your decisions control how much. And because of you, other persons as well change either for the better or for worse. It’s a butterfly effect.