Baby-stepping

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Take the first step, and your mind will mobilize all its forces to your aid.

But the first essential is that you begin.

Once the battle is started, all that is within and without you will come to your assistance.

 

-Robert Collier

 

I’m having better days. It’s not easy to regain the momentum I had before my very own dark ages (”ages” may be too long to describe it), but I’m bouncing back. I’ve begun to pick myself up and in the process of dusting it all off.

What brought this on? Well, it could have started when I triumphantly conquered the white paint souvenir the darned taxi left on my fender. (more…)

Make it stop!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

When it rains, it definitely pours. One after the other. 

It was my choice - a light load this semester. Well, not much of a choice actually, considering that they’re all that’s left. I have all the time in the world. And yet, I don’t give too much of an effort to at least make my time worthwhile. And when I hear people complaining about their time, of lack thereof, and tell me how lucky I am, I just shrug and tell them how I beat myself last semester to make it through. 

Oh yes, I have always made that excuse. It’s been months since this semester started and yet I still use the “I-got-so-tired-and-burnt-out-from-last-semester” line. And I still can’t push, or even shove, myself into doing some effort. 

When the exams came, the crammer that I was, had to spend sleepless nights studying. Not because I was into the zone then. It’s because I was too stubborn to start studying early on when I had all the time in the world. I would start only the day before the exams. There is no need to guess how bad I felt after that week. Not just bad, actually, I felt guilty. And I know I would feel a whole lot worse once the results would start revealing themselves. The fruit of my non-labor.  (more…)